I can't seem to find a friend that I can really talk to. I mean I do chat with her, but it's just on the internet.. I don't really speak Indonesian anymore, these couple of days, apart from the useless no intention conversation with my step family. Blarh. I really need someone that I could talk to.. :( It's like the only time I could ever talk about my feelings is online, with her and him.

Well, I used to be best friends with my step sister, I even let her see my blog. But now it all changes. We never even spoken to each other anymore. I can't be bothered to recover that relationship though, if she doesn't care why should I? And to think I used to help her with everything? I'm not like trying to take any credits and all, but really, I helped her with her school works, with her love life.. I panic when she was sick.. I even taught her how to draw!! (And now she's better than me) She used to be one of my best friends, we share everything together. And now it's as if it never happened. Oh well.

Now, I just can't wait to get out of this house and start my own life without having them bothering me.

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THE ART ESSAY IS DUE ON NEXT WEDNESDAY!!

I hate writing! I hate it! I'm really bad at writing.. And yet.. I have a blog.. ;P

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I Just Wanna Live
by Good Charlotte

I need an alarm system in my house
So I know when people are
Creepin' about
These people are
Freaking me out (these days)

It’s gettin' hectic everywhere that I go
They won’t leave me alone
There’s things they all wanna know
I'm paranoid of all the people I meet
Why are they talking to me?
And why can’t anyone see

I just wanna live
Don’t really care about the things that they say
Don’t really care about what happens to me
I just wanna live
Just wanna live [x6]

I rock a
Lawsuit when I’m going to court
A white suit when I’m gettin’ divorced
A black suit at the funeral home
And my birthday suit when I’m home alone
Talkin’ on the phone
Got an interview
With the Rolling Stone
They’re saying
“Now you’re rich and
Now you’re famous
Fake ass girls all know your name and
"Lifestyles" of the rich and famous
your first hit are you ashamed?”
Of the life, Of the life,
Of the life we’re livin’

I just wanna live
Don’t really care about the things that they say
Don’t really care about what happens to me
I just wanna live

Stop your messin’ around boy
Better think of your future
Better make some good plans boy
Said everyone of my teachers

Lookout
You better play it safe

You never know what hard times will come your way
We say
Where we’re coming from
We’ve already seen
The worst that this life can bring

Now we expect it everywhere that we go
All the things that they say
Yeah we already know

I just wanna live
Don’t really care about the things that they say
Don’t really care about what happens to me
(Just wanna live [x3)

I just wanna live
Just wanna live [x3]
I Just wanna live
Just wanna live [x3]
Don’t really care about the things that they say
(Just wanna live [x3]
Don't really care about what happens to me

I just wanna live





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