10 June 2005
random mood
Obviously no one wants to love me or make me happy. NO ONE ADD ANY COMMENT ON MY BLOG!! or even tried to answer the questions i posted earlier. ARGH! You guys are pissing me off!
Oh well, I went shopping with Mel, Andy, Vicky and my step sister, (also) vicky. Yeah, like I was the most misereable one. Was like trying on stuff that I know I will never afford to buy. Hahaha.. Not funny. Cause I really like the clothes I found there. And it's a torture not to buy it. It's hell! Argh. To make things worse, my step sister is wearing a new top and a new pair of boots. ANd I was wearing some random stuff from the closet and borrowed her black halter top. How pathetic is it? I felt very embarrased. Especially when Andy offers me to buy me a jacket, I feel like.. like I'm really really pathetic, like I'm just a burden to everybody. I felt useless. I know she meant to be nice, but I feel bad. It's like I'm the one that is always depend on others. Helpless.
It makes think you know. I NEED A JOB! I desperately need a job, or I will suffer like this forever. I can see it now. Me walking in front of the shops in Bridgeroad.. Staring at the windows.. Drolling all over the clothes.. *shrugs* Maybe not that bad. But still. I need a fuckin job. Maybe I didn't try hard enough? Or maybe I should just start to kissing my dad's wife's ass.. Yeah.. That way I could get new clothes without having to wok.. hmmmm... *slaps my own face* HELL NO! remember your promise! You have to learn to be independent!
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OK, I'll just think of something else then..
licked clean; sluuurrrp; 7:41 PM } link this entry
Oh well, I went shopping with Mel, Andy, Vicky and my step sister, (also) vicky. Yeah, like I was the most misereable one. Was like trying on stuff that I know I will never afford to buy. Hahaha.. Not funny. Cause I really like the clothes I found there. And it's a torture not to buy it. It's hell! Argh. To make things worse, my step sister is wearing a new top and a new pair of boots. ANd I was wearing some random stuff from the closet and borrowed her black halter top. How pathetic is it? I felt very embarrased. Especially when Andy offers me to buy me a jacket, I feel like.. like I'm really really pathetic, like I'm just a burden to everybody. I felt useless. I know she meant to be nice, but I feel bad. It's like I'm the one that is always depend on others. Helpless.
It makes think you know. I NEED A JOB! I desperately need a job, or I will suffer like this forever. I can see it now. Me walking in front of the shops in Bridgeroad.. Staring at the windows.. Drolling all over the clothes.. *shrugs* Maybe not that bad. But still. I need a fuckin job. Maybe I didn't try hard enough? Or maybe I should just start to kissing my dad's wife's ass.. Yeah.. That way I could get new clothes without having to wok.. hmmmm... *slaps my own face* HELL NO! remember your promise! You have to learn to be independent!
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OK, I'll just think of something else then..
licked clean; sluuurrrp; 7:41 PM } link this entry
