Yea, so I had this dream last night. No, wait.. Actually it was this morning, like right before I woke up to my alarm. So, this dream is...not really a dream. It's a nightmare. Yea, it's nightmare. I had a dream about my bf. So, I was finally back home in Indonesia, and I just arrived at my old house. I was hiding like behind a cupboard, to surprise my bf when he comes in to the house (i dunno why, but somehow I knew he was coming). Then he came through the door, I was going to yell surprise and then this girl came walk right behind him. And they were like all lovey dovey. I was like WTF?! But in my dream, I didn't really do anything, I just stood there watching them make out and I can't move, I can't say anything..I was like numb. I felt like I wanna die.. Sad dream.. T_T But then my dad caught them making out in front of the door, I was like HA! But then I saw the girl.. It was her.. Her!! Don;t be gross when I say this.. But she was .........................my sister.

@!#$%@#$%^&&^%$#!???!?!!!

So, my question is, what is up with that fuckin nightmare? It's been haunting me all day. I can't get it out of my head. That's like the most horrible dream ever... Anyway, I swear if that happens in real life, I would NOT just stand there and do nothing. I'll bitch slap both of them. Hell, I might just kick him on the crotch and leave him to die. You know, I'd be more hurt than him. Hehehe..

Anyway, referring to a comment I got on my LDR entry. I really think I need to get more in touch with my bf. I really do.

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OK, change topic.

We live in a multicultutral country. Everybody here speaks English, of course. But some of them don't use English as their first language (like me). I've been thinkin about this. You know some Asian people or Indian people was born and raised in Australia, and you know most of them speaks their native language (Chinese, Viet, Hndi, watever etc.), you also know that they can speakk English very well too (at least most of em), but have you ever think about what language do they use to talk to themselves? LIke when they are thinking or talking to themselves. Which language do they use? I know I probably use Indonesian most of the times, but my Dad once said, "If you want to speak English fluently, you have to think in English". I thought, yea maybe that is right. Coz most times when I am talk to English speaking friends (hehehe), I have to think in English so I could response back in English. The words just flows out naturally from your mouth like I was speaking Indo. But still, if I have trouble in saying something, expressing myself, I would try to think of it in Indo... But then I always finds it hard. In the end, I didn't get to say anythin. Lol.

I asked my friend about this. My chinese friend, she speaks both Chinese and English fluently. She was born here in Australia and she has never been to China. I asked her about what language she used in her mind, and she said she used both. It's like she mixed it and come up with her own language. My Indian friend (born and raised in Australia also), said her first language is English, but she also talks in Hindi. ANd she does the same thing in her mind, mixing the languages and stuff. Come to think of it, I also mix the languages I know. Like when I want to say something in English and I can't finish my sentence because I don't know the English word of it, I'll just fill in the blank with an Indo word. My sister would understand that, but my friends won't.. :P

It's funny howyour mind works, isn't it?
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